God is longing after you
A devotion in Women on the Frontiers, “A call to the Secret Place”, has taken me to my writing pad. May you also experience God speaking to you.
Deut 4:24 “For the LORD your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God.”
Did you ever hear God calling you, speaking to you?
The young Samuel literally heard God calling his name, and he thought it was the voice of Eli calling him, but Eli brushed it off as if it was nothing. Until the third time, then Samuel replied to the Lord’s call. But his reply to the call was not the end of the story. Now God was speaking to him and gave him a difficult command and Samuel had to obey and deliver that message. What if he reasoned, “surely God cannot expect that of me”, or “I’ll wait”, hoping to forget and later brushing it off with, maybe it was not God, maybe, if it really was God, He will speak to me later again. Jonah did something like that. He heard, brushed it off and ran away and nearly caused many people’s death on the boat and those whom he had to warn.
How often do we do it when God is speaking to us!
I don’t know about you, but I always want to know God more intimately. I want to be with Him day in and day out. But our God is holy and His holiness is a consuming fire. How can we be intimate with Somebody so holy and separate? Yet, He also has a longing after us. He draws us closer to Himself by kindling a fire that draws us like moths out of the darkness toward its great light. As we get closer, the fire of God begins to make us uncomfortable.
The light of His holiness begins to reveal all the dross and the chaff within us. We experience turmoil as we become painfully aware of our sins, shortcomings, and unworthiness to be in His beautiful, holy presence. We become aware that we have become idolaters – our looks are more important than God’s desires for us; our e-mails, whatsapp’s and surfing on the internet replace time spend with Him in His Word. We nurture the passions of our soul and flesh, and these idols keep us trapped in worldliness.
Our turmoil grows deeper and stronger until it becomes a battle over our very souls.
We long for Him and we remember all His wonderful promises. Yet at the same time we are overwhelmed with our failings, angers, jealousies, and lusts. Within, we cry out, How could He possibly love me or want me as I am? But the heavenly Lover of our souls already sees and knows everything. Fully aware of our every fault, He nevertheless calls us to Himself.
Unfortunately, our sense of unworthiness often causes us to resist Him and hold back from running into His arms in full surrender. And we brush Him off and hang onto our worldly passions, interests, positions, power, possessions, people—all in an attempt to anchor ourselves here on earth, where we feel a little more secure and just hope for the best.
In between our busy programs the thought and fear come: What will He ask of me? What will He force me to give up? We attempt to bargain our way out of it all. And deep inside we know our souls are at stake. Until sooner or later, we look up. Who is this Man standing before us? It’s Jesus! He is calling us tenderly, “Just let go of your struggle. Let it go…and come to Me!”
Then, I dare to let go of all resistance and fear, and I run to Him and fall at His feet surrendering myself. When we surrender and ask Him forgiveness for our sin of resistance and rebellion against His will, instantly, the Holy Spirit breathes upon us, and set our hearts ablaze with love for Him. When we surrender to His call and confess our sins, a huge burden falls from us and we realize the wonder of freedom and the sweet value of the open channel between us and our God.
1John 1:7 is so important:
“But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.”
What about we undertake, we resolve, to live 1 John 1:7? I want to urge you to live this life for your Savior.
“Therefore let us gird up the loins of our mind, be sober and set our hope perfectly on the grace that is to be brought unto us at the revelation of Jesus Christ; as children of obedience, not fashioning ourselves according to our former lusts in the time of our ignorance: but like as he who called us is holy, let us ourselves also be holy in all manner of living; because it is written, ‘Ye shall be holy; for I am holy’. And if we call on him as Father, who without respect of persons judges according to each man’s work, pass the time of our sojourning in fear: knowing that we were redeemed, not with corruptible things, with silver or gold, from our vain manner of life handed down from our fathers; but with precious blood, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot, even the blood of Christ:”.
1 Peter 1:13-19 (I’ve replaced all “your” & “you” with “we” & “us” in the text to make it more personal).